The end of the Holidays meant the end of our visitors. What a great holiday season we had. One of the best. It's the first one living far away and might make you believe that it would be worse but truth is when the kids visit and it involves getting on a plane it makes for much more time together than when they are a half hour drive away. Instead of a couple 2 hours visits over the holidays it was a period of true quality time, doing things each day or just "hanging out" together and enjoying each others company.
Well that is over now and its back to reality and for us reality is good.
Finally settled in and now that the guests are gone the re emergence of our full blown FLR is back.
I was gone for a couple days and Mistress decided to let me know while I was gone that she was in the process of making a list of things she wanted done when I got home. She then threw in a warning. I know you are wishing to watch the football playoffs on Sunday, if the list isn't done and if its not to my satisfaction then I will be watching while you finish your list.
Truth is that Mistress has been away for a while. That Mistress was on kind of a sabbatical caused by stress. Of course I was instantly excited and a bit shocked at the same time. If you know my Mistress though you would know that she isn't joking about this.
When I came home I was in for another surprise. She told me she had been busy and hasn't finished the list yet. Of course this does not mean that I am off the hook to complete this list, just the opposite, I will just have less time to accomplish her tasks. She is going to be late tonight so I was hoping to spend time this evening getting as much done as I can.
Now I am going to do what I know needs done and hopefully when I get her list, some or most of the things will already be taken care of but it just reminds me that she is in charge, she is under no deadline to make her list, but I am still under my deadline to complete it. Somehow I picture myself working right up until the games start on Sunday afternoon hoping to be able to watch.
Well here is the part that the average vanilla guy would never understand. For me, the submissive, this is exactly what I want, I want to know that my Mistress has the freedom to decide what needs to be done and when, she also has the freedom to determine if its done according to her expectations and has the freedom to decide what happens if it isn't. For a submissive like me that is the most freeing feeling in the world. I want to be at this place, I want to feel her power and be the tool to make her life easier.
Do I want to watch the football games, hell yeah I do, but I want to earn that as well. You could probably try to convince someone who is not submissive for 10 hours straight and they wouldn't understand. And that's ok, that's why its probably not useful to advertise how we live our lives.
If I have all the work done on the list and it's game time will I be nervous asking her if the work was done well enough to watch the games? Yes, I will, I will be nervous knowing that she might say, "Sorry the bathrooms weren't done properly, why don't you go clean them again and see if you get it right this time." Will I be upset if I miss part or all of the game redoing things because she wasn't satisfied? I don't know if upset is the correct word, I will be disappointed in myself but I will also go about doing what she says knowing that I am in my place, that place that allows me to kneel at her feet and obey her decisions. It's where I want to be.
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