Tuesday, September 18, 2012

A normal Monday....NOT.

Monday can be a bad day at our house, mostly just because of the stresses of work tend to play out on Monday's, not exactly sure why but Monday evenings tend to be ones where we don't do too much and maybe go out to dinner, relax and watch Football.

Also lately Mistress S. has been a little less than her dominant self as I posted last week. I think I have still accomplished in keeping her happy with making sure things were taken care of so she could relax, focus on the things she needed to do and not have to worry about the house and things of that nature.

Yesterday something was different, when I arrived home from work (Mistress S. had to work late). There was a note on the kitchen counter top that gave a list of things that needed to be done, a mention that on our bed was the outfit I had to wear while accomplishing her tasks and that if I finished before she got home then I could spend the rest of the time standing in the corner awaiting her return.

Well that was excitement to the nth degree. I went upstairs and saw a maids uniform awaiting me. "Nice touch Mistress." I said to myself and before putting it on went to accomplish the outside tasks first. (She did say in the note that I should change into uniform after the outside work was completed)

As it turned out she got home around 8:30pm and the list still wasn't completed so at least I didn't have to spend a lot of time staring at the wall without moving. By the time she got home my feet were aching from the 4" heels she decided I should wear. As she came into our bedroom where I was reorganizing her clothes drawers (the last thing on the list). I greeted her kneeled before her and before I could ask if I could take the heels off she sat in a chair and said, "I see your not done with the list I gave you...Back to work." I realized that asking for shoe removal would have been a bad idea so I finished up while she talked on the phone and relaxed with her feet up.

When I was finally done she allowed me to change and go to the store for her. On return from that she invited me to sit down with her and watch Monday night football.

I asked her if I would have been allowed to turn the game on and watch before she arrived home and I was still working. She let me know that the maids outfit was a signal that I was on her time and hers alone that I was on duty and TV or anything else besides the work she gave me would have been met with punishment. Looks like I made the right call leaving the TV off.

That got me thinking about how the dynamic of our FLR works, how while reorganizing her clothes drawers the TV was literally right on top of the dresser, the TV would not have slowed my work down but yet I knew that while working for her I need to focus on her fully, TV was out of the question and she was testing me on that.

Me and my ass were very happy we passed that test last night.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Ebb and Flow of Dominance

From time to time Mistress S will experience ebbs and flows in the level of her dominance. Usually it coincides with events going on at work or with issues that have her mind preoccupied. Lately that has been the situation as work has been not so great for her lately.

While I love to be at her beck and call and reminded of my place thru discipline. I completely get why she goes thru these things. I also realize that when these times come it is even more important for me than ever to serve her and make her life as easy as possible.

I think there might be a natural tendency when the domme is not feeling so dominant that the sub may feel less submissive and thus the D/s relationship atrophies a bit. I now see that these are the times more than ever that she deserves my best behavior. Making sure the laundry is done, the house is clean, her things are taken care of. In the times of stress she needs this treatment even more but won't ask for it.

All the more reason to work harder for her and let her enjoy the benefits of her authority in our relationship. It perks her up when the bed is made, the dishes are done and the laundry is all taken care of without her even having to utter a word of instruction. She can focus on the things she needs to and live a bit more stress free.

How do others handle these types of situations? Whether from the domme or sub side.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Mistress S will regain her proper position.

Our guest is leaving today, I am quite happy and so is Mistress S to get back to our "normal" life again. As much as it was obvious to our guest that I do the bulk of the work around the house, as well as the obvious eagerness I show when Mistress S would be sitting and say, "I need another beer baby." Its not quite the same. Mistress S won't punish in front of others so any mistakes for the last week will probably be tallied and taught when the guest is gone. Fortunately I believe I did a pretty good job of keeping things straight and making myself a good stealth servant while the guest was here....Unfortunately what I think about my performance counts as much as a vote in a crooked election.

I guess that is my lucky situation. I read of blogs of guys who blurt their submissive dreams to their significant others only to have them met with trepadation, disbelief and a lack of interest. To some degree my revelation to Mistress S was kind of met with the same things. I tried my best to follow the advice I had read online about going slow, letting her set the pace and just serving her within the vision she had about what our relationship was.

As time went on she took to being dominant exponentially and once she realized this was something she should have been all along, all I can say is watch out, becareful what you wish for.

I bring this up because many of the methods and controls she used this week and many of the ways I acted in front of the guest reminded me of the early days of our FLR. That was 2 years ago but still is quite fresh in my mind.

Back then it was awesome, now it leaves me a bit unfufilled. I can't wait till tonight when I can freely kneel before her on the couch and ask permission to sit on the furniture with her again.

The point is once you get in a serious 24/7 FLR if something gets in the way of that, wow is it missed.

I am reminded over and over that my reality in my submissive world is better than the fantasies I dreamed of for years and years. That fantasy of being owned by a beautiful, mean, controlling woman who would keep me as her personal slave and dress me as she chose only to be dismissed when not needed was replaced in real life by an even more beautfiul woman who truly loves and cares for me BUT has decided that we are better off with her being in charge. That woman who is kind and fufills me BUT has decided that housework should be done by her servant and she will be the deciding factor on if it is satisfactory. That woman who is my best friend and the person I do almost everything with BUT feels that when her instructions aren't followed their needs to be reprecussions and her rules need to be followed without question.

That is my life now and I can't wait till tonight to get it back!

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Just normal life and our FLR.

One of the best things about living a full time relationship with Mistress S in charge is the ease at which things happen even with guests around.

Although we don't flaunt that I have to obey her in every decision around our guest it's not exactly hidden either.

No I don't kneel in front of her or call her Mistress with others around but she still leaves the cleaning of things to me and still doesn't hesitate to ask me to do things. Its just said in a different manor. However the implication and look on her face let me know that even though she may be asking nicely for me to get her a glass of water while she sits on the patio there is nothing about her request that has room for me to do anything except what she has nicely asked for.

Our guest noticed how clean our home was when they arrived and Mistress S had no issue giving me full credit for it. Of course this brought up a conversation of if Mistress S helped to which she lovingly answered, no he does the cleaning, he is awesome.

Again she was asked if there are clones of me. To which she answered, "No he is one of a kind." Of course she resisted saying that she trained me properly or anything along those lines. But it was obvious to our guest that Mistress S has a partner who treats her like gold. That is a huge source of pride for me.

I guess one thing that surpises me as I go thru life is seeing some of the people who say to Mistress S, "Do you have a clone of him?" or "You are so lucky to have a guy like that." Continue to date and find partners that are completely opposite of what they tell her they want. I wonder if it is because they don't realize that a partner like that is an acheivable goal for them or if they really don't want that but act like they do. My guess it's more that they do not realize that this type of relationship exists for more than just a small handful of women.

I also realize that many women could not play the role of leader properly and on top of that many women shouldn't lead.

My past marriage of almost 20 years was to a person who was not fit to lead so I was never able to give up control even though the submissive in me was dying to get out.

I will just continue to be completely happy and satisfied I finally found someone who is a great leader and I will follow her forever.