Our guest is leaving today, I am quite happy and so is Mistress S to get back to our "normal" life again. As much as it was obvious to our guest that I do the bulk of the work around the house, as well as the obvious eagerness I show when Mistress S would be sitting and say, "I need another beer baby." Its not quite the same. Mistress S won't punish in front of others so any mistakes for the last week will probably be tallied and taught when the guest is gone. Fortunately I believe I did a pretty good job of keeping things straight and making myself a good stealth servant while the guest was here....Unfortunately what I think about my performance counts as much as a vote in a crooked election.
I guess that is my lucky situation. I read of blogs of guys who blurt their submissive dreams to their significant others only to have them met with trepadation, disbelief and a lack of interest. To some degree my revelation to Mistress S was kind of met with the same things. I tried my best to follow the advice I had read online about going slow, letting her set the pace and just serving her within the vision she had about what our relationship was.
As time went on she took to being dominant exponentially and once she realized this was something she should have been all along, all I can say is watch out, becareful what you wish for.
I bring this up because many of the methods and controls she used this week and many of the ways I acted in front of the guest reminded me of the early days of our FLR. That was 2 years ago but still is quite fresh in my mind.
Back then it was awesome, now it leaves me a bit unfufilled. I can't wait till tonight when I can freely kneel before her on the couch and ask permission to sit on the furniture with her again.
The point is once you get in a serious 24/7 FLR if something gets in the way of that, wow is it missed.
I am reminded over and over that my reality in my submissive world is better than the fantasies I dreamed of for years and years. That fantasy of being owned by a beautiful, mean, controlling woman who would keep me as her personal slave and dress me as she chose only to be dismissed when not needed was replaced in real life by an even more beautfiul woman who truly loves and cares for me BUT has decided that we are better off with her being in charge. That woman who is kind and fufills me BUT has decided that housework should be done by her servant and she will be the deciding factor on if it is satisfactory. That woman who is my best friend and the person I do almost everything with BUT feels that when her instructions aren't followed their needs to be reprecussions and her rules need to be followed without question.
That is my life now and I can't wait till tonight to get it back!
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