Things change around the Christmas season for us, I am sure for many others as well. The daily grind doesn't grind as much. Feelings towards others can even soften, what might normally bother you is forgiven a bit easier.
Maybe the trouble with this is that why is this time of good feelings towards others only temporary?
Maybe this year the best thing we could do to honor the feelings that Christmas brings is to continue those feelings into the next year.
A few weeks ago Mistress was leaving work, she was making a turn out of the parking lot and a guy was coming from the other direction, went thru a stop sign that he didn't even see and followed her. Pulled along side of her at a light and screamed some of the worst things a person possibly could to another human. The idea that the guy was so angry because he felt he was cut off, not realizing the fault was all his makes you sometimes wonder about people. Why the anger for something so small anyways, something so inconsequential in the scope of life?
As it turned out the video surveillance picked up the whole scene and confirmed that he was in the wrong. They asked Mistress if she wanted to press charges and she declined.
I felt different I wanted to have them bring the guy in and make him watch the video and explain at what point he saw something that Mistress did that was so egregious that his actions were justified, I know for a fact that guy would complete feel like an ass if forced to see the situation from a different point of view.
From my end I sometimes have issues with others. Handicap parking spaces are my pet peeve. I can't tell you how many times I have seen a person get out of their car and pull the rear view mirror handicap sign out of their glove box and practically run into the store. Especially during the busy Christmas season. I know those people think because they have procured a sign that they are "Entitled" to park there, that if a true handicap person needs that spot then there is going to be another one so what is the big deal. I really get angry when I see a person do this and lately I have to think to myself, maybe I also need to soften. Even if people feel the need to do a wide variety of things that I feel aren't in the best behavior for a caring human. I can't fall into a negative sort of mood because of it.
So I am starting with myself. I am going to focus on continuing the spirit of treating my fellow humans the way I would like to be treated, I will do my best to make someones day with a nice comment and I will do everything in my power to smile when I might normally get angry at another. I won't make a difference in the overall scope of the world but in my little world it might make a difference.
Ok for those few people that do read my blog I will admit this has nothing to do with my submissiveness. If you don't like it that's fine with me, I will just continue to smile and be thankful for everything I have in life and not worry about what I don't have.
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Weekend of productivity
Last weekend was very productive. Spent a lot of time getting the house really clean and cleaning out closets in the spare room and just getting rid of things that were just ready for the garbage. Trash guy is going to hate me tomorrow.
Anyways I did most of this on my own, Mistress didn't give me any direction except, "I want the wood floors cleaned and waxed."
Of course doing all this work can provide a good feeling of accomplishment and it also made Mistress quite happy.
As the time went on I was wishing a bit she would make me do things so it would get my submissive juices flowing but that wasn't to be. I read another blog about a similar topic and it got me thinking.
How much better would it have been if Mistress was constantly inspecting, and assigning chore after chore. Well when I think better do I think better for me or better for her. As it turned out she was quite happy to do her own thing and just not have to worry about things and magically they were done. She enjoyed not having to supervise or make a list of tasks, just enjoy the fruit of her subs labor.
I guess as I venture thru my submission I am slowly learning that sometimes being a sub is just about the business of getting things done. I did that this past weekend and am very glad for it.
The thing is Mistress is very observant and can read my mind like an open book so even with the weekend being as it was she mixed in a few things to spice my days up. At one point she called me into a room and asked if I moved a few things before vacuuming, instead of answering yes or no I answered with, "I think I got the area pretty clean." Of course her response was, "That wasn't what I asked." After admitting I didn't move the items she said, "I think you know what to do then..." As she walked out of the room she added, "And next time you answer like that you will be writing sentences."
As it turned out I didn't earn sentences but I did get a huge reward for a job well done and she was very happy, overall a great weekend...well except for my local NFL team that played like they were just ready to go home after half time.
Anyways I did most of this on my own, Mistress didn't give me any direction except, "I want the wood floors cleaned and waxed."
Of course doing all this work can provide a good feeling of accomplishment and it also made Mistress quite happy.
As the time went on I was wishing a bit she would make me do things so it would get my submissive juices flowing but that wasn't to be. I read another blog about a similar topic and it got me thinking.
How much better would it have been if Mistress was constantly inspecting, and assigning chore after chore. Well when I think better do I think better for me or better for her. As it turned out she was quite happy to do her own thing and just not have to worry about things and magically they were done. She enjoyed not having to supervise or make a list of tasks, just enjoy the fruit of her subs labor.
I guess as I venture thru my submission I am slowly learning that sometimes being a sub is just about the business of getting things done. I did that this past weekend and am very glad for it.
The thing is Mistress is very observant and can read my mind like an open book so even with the weekend being as it was she mixed in a few things to spice my days up. At one point she called me into a room and asked if I moved a few things before vacuuming, instead of answering yes or no I answered with, "I think I got the area pretty clean." Of course her response was, "That wasn't what I asked." After admitting I didn't move the items she said, "I think you know what to do then..." As she walked out of the room she added, "And next time you answer like that you will be writing sentences."
As it turned out I didn't earn sentences but I did get a huge reward for a job well done and she was very happy, overall a great weekend...well except for my local NFL team that played like they were just ready to go home after half time.
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Oh that hurt.
I will be the first to admit Mistress does not punish me very often. Some people would be happy about it, some not so much.
I used to wish she would punish more when I make a mistake, just the selfish submissive part of me. When we first started our FLR it as something that happened quite a bit. She would make me lay on the bed and she would use her riding crop, paddle or cane on me. When done I would be all proud of myself for being able to take it and kind of wish it would go longer.
What I guess I didn't realize at the time was that we were just playing, I didn't think it was play I thought it was real discipline.
Fast forward a few years and the punishments aren't nearly as often but I am extremely glad for that.
As it turned out as time went on Mistress wanted less to punish, it just isn't a fun game for her BUT when she does she now makes sure it is no game. I now fully realize and understand that if she decided to I am no match for her ass beatings. So much for the big strong man who could take it.
Last night was one of those times. It's probably been 2 months since I have had to lay face down on that bed. So when she sometimes threatens it I don't always take it seriously.
A couple of days ago she was making remarks that maybe I needed to be shown a lesson because some of the things around the house weren't cleaned when she wanted them to be. Then yesterday after work she was looking for some jeans she wanted to wear, as it turned out 3 of the pairs she was looking for were still in the wash. She didn't like that. Then when she said she would just put a pair of sweats on while I finished them the pair she wanted was dirty also. So I was on thin ice already then I being brave made a smart ass comment. Now mind you I am not disrespectful to her in any way. That just isn't me but I have always been a joker type and quick with the wit and one liner comebacks. Apparently when the clothes were dirty yesterday was not the time for jokes.
After my comment she just smiled and said, "You know what, on the bed, pants down." I asked her to reconsider and she just told me every second I delayed it would be worse.
Well it was worse. Oh that freakin hurt. When it was over. I apologized profusely and she accepted it.
She then remarked that she is going to probably need to do this more often to make sure that I am a bit better behaved.
She said it was up to me to not force her hand because she really doesn't enjoy doing that. What used to be a fun game has turned into what it was always supposed to be. A real deterrent to bad behavior from her sub.
Honestly the days of hoping for her punishment are long gone. As usual she wins. I had to work today but I can absolutely guarantee you I will be working very hard at cleaning her house as soon as I get home. She already has let me know that in addition to tonight she wants to go do some shopping tomorrow and what better time for me to spend some time getting some extra chores done for her.
I asked her if I could get up early and clean Sunday so I can watch some football. Her only response was, you can get up early but not really sure about the football. She did say since she will be watching she could let me know how the game went.
I used to wish she would punish more when I make a mistake, just the selfish submissive part of me. When we first started our FLR it as something that happened quite a bit. She would make me lay on the bed and she would use her riding crop, paddle or cane on me. When done I would be all proud of myself for being able to take it and kind of wish it would go longer.
What I guess I didn't realize at the time was that we were just playing, I didn't think it was play I thought it was real discipline.
Fast forward a few years and the punishments aren't nearly as often but I am extremely glad for that.
As it turned out as time went on Mistress wanted less to punish, it just isn't a fun game for her BUT when she does she now makes sure it is no game. I now fully realize and understand that if she decided to I am no match for her ass beatings. So much for the big strong man who could take it.
Last night was one of those times. It's probably been 2 months since I have had to lay face down on that bed. So when she sometimes threatens it I don't always take it seriously.
A couple of days ago she was making remarks that maybe I needed to be shown a lesson because some of the things around the house weren't cleaned when she wanted them to be. Then yesterday after work she was looking for some jeans she wanted to wear, as it turned out 3 of the pairs she was looking for were still in the wash. She didn't like that. Then when she said she would just put a pair of sweats on while I finished them the pair she wanted was dirty also. So I was on thin ice already then I being brave made a smart ass comment. Now mind you I am not disrespectful to her in any way. That just isn't me but I have always been a joker type and quick with the wit and one liner comebacks. Apparently when the clothes were dirty yesterday was not the time for jokes.
After my comment she just smiled and said, "You know what, on the bed, pants down." I asked her to reconsider and she just told me every second I delayed it would be worse.
Well it was worse. Oh that freakin hurt. When it was over. I apologized profusely and she accepted it.
She then remarked that she is going to probably need to do this more often to make sure that I am a bit better behaved.
She said it was up to me to not force her hand because she really doesn't enjoy doing that. What used to be a fun game has turned into what it was always supposed to be. A real deterrent to bad behavior from her sub.
Honestly the days of hoping for her punishment are long gone. As usual she wins. I had to work today but I can absolutely guarantee you I will be working very hard at cleaning her house as soon as I get home. She already has let me know that in addition to tonight she wants to go do some shopping tomorrow and what better time for me to spend some time getting some extra chores done for her.
I asked her if I could get up early and clean Sunday so I can watch some football. Her only response was, you can get up early but not really sure about the football. She did say since she will be watching she could let me know how the game went.
Monday, December 2, 2013
Strange times ahead
We have been together for 4 years now. About 2 years ago as the kids left for college we acquired an empty nest. Of course it makes the FLR we live very easy.
Well in a few weeks her daughter will be on break for the Christmas holiday.. Mistress already informed me that I should stay focused with my duties as they are. She won't be expecting her daughter to do any of the housecleaning.
That doesn't mean I will have to do as she says but I should take it upon myself not wait around for her to do things. Then after that she said to me, "I am not sure if I will have you obey her." I think she was jokeing around with me but sometimes I am not sure. Honestly I wouldn't mind obeying her if that's what Mistress wishes but it brings up a very strange situation. I have never had to deal with obeying anyone besides Mistress. Especially someone who is much younger.
In some ways it pushes the buttons in my submissiveness. But in some ways I do it anyways. In the past when she is home I cook and clean up dinner dishes so that isn't different, I clean the house and things of that nature without being told without asking for help. So in that regard there will be no change but just knowing that Mistress told me that she wants me to be on top of things to make sure the daughter doesn't have to do any housework is a change in my mind.
Maybe to some this is normal. Maybe to some obeying others is just part of everyday life. Maybe it will be in time for me as well but in the short term it might be a strange occurrence.
I don't think Mistress has in mind for me to clean her daughters room or do her laundry just the basics around the house, put her coat away when she puts in on a chair, pick her shoes up when she leaves them out. That sort of thing. Although with Mistress who knows.
After discussing it I thought to my self. What happened if she walks in and says, "Go clean my room." I know I would do it because if she said such a thing I would know Mistress told her about our situation but I honestly don't expect such a thing to happen. However I will admit that at the beginning I will be a bit anxious to see how things play out.
Well in a few weeks her daughter will be on break for the Christmas holiday.. Mistress already informed me that I should stay focused with my duties as they are. She won't be expecting her daughter to do any of the housecleaning.
That doesn't mean I will have to do as she says but I should take it upon myself not wait around for her to do things. Then after that she said to me, "I am not sure if I will have you obey her." I think she was jokeing around with me but sometimes I am not sure. Honestly I wouldn't mind obeying her if that's what Mistress wishes but it brings up a very strange situation. I have never had to deal with obeying anyone besides Mistress. Especially someone who is much younger.
In some ways it pushes the buttons in my submissiveness. But in some ways I do it anyways. In the past when she is home I cook and clean up dinner dishes so that isn't different, I clean the house and things of that nature without being told without asking for help. So in that regard there will be no change but just knowing that Mistress told me that she wants me to be on top of things to make sure the daughter doesn't have to do any housework is a change in my mind.
Maybe to some this is normal. Maybe to some obeying others is just part of everyday life. Maybe it will be in time for me as well but in the short term it might be a strange occurrence.
I don't think Mistress has in mind for me to clean her daughters room or do her laundry just the basics around the house, put her coat away when she puts in on a chair, pick her shoes up when she leaves them out. That sort of thing. Although with Mistress who knows.
After discussing it I thought to my self. What happened if she walks in and says, "Go clean my room." I know I would do it because if she said such a thing I would know Mistress told her about our situation but I honestly don't expect such a thing to happen. However I will admit that at the beginning I will be a bit anxious to see how things play out.
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